December 31, 2015
Life is good, God is waaaay better. I’m starting with that statement this time – I am reassured of that each day – really each hour these past couple of days. People – family, friends, folks on the street or in the store have all been incredible. People know – they ‘sense’ hurt and respond appropriately. That is so very treasured. My Momma died on Tuesday, December 29th at 13:49 PST. Dad, Phyllis, Bob via FaceTime, Susan, Nathan, Jesse and I were all there…holding her hand, stroking her arm, leg, shoulder, forehead, making sure she could ‘feel’ us and hoping she could hear us. I whispered to her a lot that day…the nurses would kind of talk loudly to her as they swabbed out her mouth or did some routine on her. I couldn’t do that – I wanted to be gentle with my Momma…loud noises would startle her at home recently. She would wake up and say ‘what was that’…I didn’t want her startled. I wanted her to go from this world gently, peacefully and walk right into heaven knowing she is loved – by many and beyond measure. I can just picture her walking – well, running really, right up to Jesus, and my Grandpa that I never knew and my Grandma that I so admired – saying – I’m here!...I’m here! She wasn’t a ‘huggy’ person really…she was huggable…but not real huggy so I don’t know how she would greet them but I can imagine them running to her as well. I lay awake Tuesday night just knowing that my Grandpa Kuhlman was waiting to see her…she was the first of his children to join him in heaven.
Momma couldn’t wait – she was ready…she said that from the moment the diagnosis was heard – we talked about it on the phone when she called me in Budapest on October 26th with the news. She told a lot of people that…she was ready to walk and talk with Jesus. She is doing that now – and I am very glad. I miss her – I woke up this morning and instantly knew she wasn’t here – and I miss her. I love you Momma…I miss you terribly and always will – thank you for being my Momma, thank you for teaching, sharing, disciplining, and loving me – but most of all – thank you for being my Momma.